Sunday, March 17, 2013

untitled.


second song of the year. darkest of all.
双人床的温度
只能待到日出
你暂时在谁的被里居住

日落有回头路
枯叶都有归宿
怜悯我没为爱受过苦

眼睁睁看着别人幸福
幸福在不远处 不远处 好模糊

找不到的幸福
总是那么难的幸福
付出换回来的那些礼物
走得太仓促

得不到的幸福
那个不存在的幸福
为什么总有另一个女人
比我快一步

不是我太盲目
而是无可去处
你说无所谓 至少可以一起哭

我找不到幸福
那么难的幸福
付出换回来的那些礼物
走得太仓促

得不到的幸福
那个不存在的幸福
为什么总有另一个女人
比我更幸福
我服输

Thursday, March 14, 2013

Here I am.

Here i am.

Sitting in an air-conditioned room that i can call my own.
frown hanging on my face that it can call its own.

im not the most productive person in the world,
i spend the last 40 minutes reading my blog back to 2007
thats when i decided to write this down,
i almost forgotten how to do it,
there's some point in life that u wouldnt want to spend another minute reading crap.
i am glad that i have not reached that point.

Here i am,
i got a little bigger, i ate recklessly and work out vigorously whenever i feel like i needed to.
i got a little happier, with a job i can fall in love with
i got a little older, at least i tried to act like one because i had to.

reading back those words i laid down 5 years ago,
i was smitten by those sweet words that was meant for other people,
i was touched by my own sensitivity to my own emotions.
i was frightened by the cynical melancholy expression that i once had.
for a moment, i felt like i was a world of person all in one.

Here i am,
living with the other person inside me,
that person is a friend, who taps me in the shoulder and remind me to pick up the guitar once in a while.
that person is an enemy, slaps me on the face with reality no matter i needed it or not
that person is a stranger, i have to recall strenuously to remember details about this man.


Here i am.
feet on the ground.