routine.

you woke up this morning at the same time with the same alarm tone,
after the same sun rose at the same side,
dragged your feet off the bed the same way,
had the same breakfast
do all the same thing you need to
just to walk out the same old exit of your same old house.

u don't like routines, do you
because i don't

you walk the streets that you'll have to walk for years to come
strangers, they have the same old face
you're sick with the same paper work,
dealing with the old stubborn boss,
waiting for 21 one day to end,
waiting for the same thing.

you call the same boy friend, the same number,
he pickup the phone, with the usual "hello"
the familiar voice and tone, the same topic that you'll usually chat about
the same warmth thru the phone.
you're happy with it, as always.

i don't like routines, do you?

you lived through the same script that life has written for us
you walked the same old path,
you end up in the coffin just like everyone else would.

how scary, routines.

how about waking up without the alarm,
fire your boss that pay you for the time of your life,
pop up infront of her door for a lil sweet suprise.

why is everyone doing the same old thing.?

not to convince you im a freak.

not to convince you im a freak,
but i had double personalities
once an anti social but now a social-bee wanna-be
doesn't read much but act like a geek
if you found me on the street lonely
that'd be as good as striking the lottery
and but yeah, i don't have a roomie.

hey, not trying to convince you i'm a freak
i have a tidy life but the room is always messy
most of the things have been messy anyway.
you might find me funny, you might find me arty, you might find me creepy
hey, speak to me and decide where to put me

jeez.

not to convince you i'm a freak,
but im not your ordinary meat.


hope you'll find me.

struggle.

I think it is time,
to quit internet.

but i'm typing this on the internet,and without internet, no one would be able to read this.
but my company operate on internet, without internet my company would close down.
but there were so many friendships kept alive with the help of internet.

but then again, i hate the feeling of addiction
but then again, everything little thing in internet seems so unreal like it would vanishes the any time
but then again, the more social life i have on the line, the less i have in the real world.

it took me two days to decide that it is imposible to quit internet.
but it would be great if i can cut down my personal time on it.
i'm not sure if this is the right thing to do,
but i'm sure there's nothing wrong about it.

coffee song playing.

Chilly weather,
view of the busy town,
and a cup of old town white coffee makes it all complete.

what a good start of the day!

the present.

sometimes it could be scary just to think about how
how you would regret in the future with the things that you had done in the past,
which is the present.
you laughed at your own hairstyle in the old photo albums
you could have a lil more courage to talk to that girl
you should have spent a lil more time talking to your brother

10 years after today,
you might regret for not doing something more constructive than reminiscing the past that you could never turn back to.

the scariest part is that you will never know what is the right thing to do now until the present became the past and the past is irreversible.
that somehow someday you'll look back and feel remorseful for something.
it is knowing that this cycle will never end.

d.c.

-i risked my life for this pic

A simple combination of alphabets, symbols, or numbers
has no meaning to the passer by.
but it could mean something special to some people

lovers like to make up their own abbreviations to communicate
they use their birthdate for the password in facebook

"7" means forever...

there's no black and white
you defined it yourself where no one else would know

and when those combination came together
you'd know it represents some part of you

should i quit listening to my own tracks.

while driving, i like to listen to CDs instead of the radio stations
is this a sign that i am isolating my self from the outer world?
yes i am gemini, but the everchanging trait doesn't apply on my music preference
tell me whats on the radio today?, please?

how could i say that i was open to the world?
when the half of the population were listening to the weekly top hits
and i'd probably playing a single track for the 233 times, this week
its like choosing storybook over newspaper
your own room over an holiday
memories over a runaway


i was left behind by the world
because i left the world behind


should i quit listening to my own tracks?