emo.

im depressed as something unexpected has ruined everything

forgive me as i had sinned
to thou i confess under the blue moon
would you forgive me for i has done wrong?
would you understand that i'm just an ordinary man
like you?

do u hear my confessions in whisper?
i know the inevitable will happen
that what is real always find its way to reveal itself

Don't want to be thrown into chaos
by sustaining something that has rotten
which way of ignorance have the least destructive consequences?



i don't know.

i was looking for something in my room.

i was looking for something in my room
and it was no where in my sight

have u ever? .
have u ever lost something?

i looked everywhere
under the bed, in the cupboard, under the computer table
but still, i couldnt find the thing i want now

have u ever?
have u ever lost something and thought you'll never get them back again?

after sometime searching thru
after ive given up
i saw it lying just on the table, behind the wooden speaker.

have u ever?
have u ever lost something,
and thought u'll never get them back again,
but then ended up having them again?

the feeling is like breathing the free air again after a scuba dive.

who.

i realize i've been keeping things to myself
maybe that's the reason of the lack of update

there's a treasure box in my heart
there are many things inside
valuable secrets
stupid little things
and there's an invaluable thing
which is you, my beautiful little secret
that i wouldnt wanna share with anyone

before the world found the reason to invade my territory
i chose to conceal my thoughts about you

deep down under.

listen to my left brain.

im slightly more motivated to clean my room recently
tat's when i realized,
there'll only be more and more dust all the time
last time id say my room is already clean enough
there's no need to clean again
secretly,i havent really have a close look at the floor i stepped on everyday.

the furniture forever in its place, the plant that keeps on growing
and the voice the windows make.
i started to see the dust.

last time when i was a child, i never clean my room
now,
id ask my self everynite,
is this the "living alone " life that i wanted?
is this the life that i feared,
but once craved of when i was younger?
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i cant believe that,
im already living in my childhood dream.

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ahhh.. i off the computer, and the lights
i didnt even listen to mp3 to fall asleep tat night.

and
i wake up the next morning to realise
the dust can be easily brushed away.

hehe.

There was a small earthquake in the little town i lived in.

can u feel the shake ?
that was an earthquake in Sumantera
and the old building in my uni shook as well.

everyone was evacuated frm the building
everybody ran for their life
i was at home, sleeping
where were you?

i closed my eyes as hard as i could
fall asleep, fall asleep,ergh
it wont be so painful
if the building is really collapsing.