知音

词曲：ｄｃｄａｒｒｅｎ

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夜深人静 只听见自己的声音

关了灯空荡的房间里

吵杂的寂静

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曾迷失自己 人海中要往哪去

受委屈 伤心

却没人为我指引

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想听你的声音

仿佛有种让我安定的魔力

你说的一字一句 都是最动听

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听着你的声音

那一种能让我澎湃的频率

心跳的动力

让我做你 生命中的知音

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人间无情

耳机里却有温馨

再黑的夜里 都不怕寂寞来袭

是你给了我指引

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人来人往太拥挤

没人打开耳朵倾听

只要我听懂 你的倾诉就行

给不了

词：循宇 曲：dcdarren

曾以为 闭上眼 就再不会用悲伤字眼

曾以为 去绽放 微弱地去想温馨时光

一片幻生的惆怅

散场没人在身旁

无声的 残喘地 我困在我心脏

你给不了我想要的

我走不出属于他的

他离不开他占据的心坎

要叫我能怎样爱你呢

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你解不了我背负的

感情总是难分难舍

自己爱得多狂热 谁说不值得

要怎样爱你呢

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剧场讽刺的歌唱

散场没人在身旁

无声的 残喘地 刺痛我心脏

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我倒流的交集

渗入搁浅的怀疑

无法呼吸 那么容易

我困在他 的世界里

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你给不了我想要的

我走不出属于他的

他离不开他占据的心坎

要叫我能怎样爱你呢

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你解不了我背负的

感情总是难分难舍

自己爱得多深刻 你却是过客

我还能爱你么

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还以为 闭上眼 就再不会用悲伤字眼

lightyear away.

you live in a world which moves around the orbit

sunrise in the morning and moonlight in the dark.

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i live in a little planet outside your galaxy

the only predictable is unpredictability

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where love grows on trees,

and the river flows memories.

i never know how to lay my feet

because i never experienced gravity

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there is no history

no myth

and no God to believe in

as we wouldn't need any.

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would you come with me

even if its merely because of curiosity

we dont need a spaceship

all we need is a release

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one million lightyear is a split second away.

高攀不起

词曲 dcdarren

你 有最亮的眼睛

无懈可击

在你的眼里 我却只是透明

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你 有最善良的心

却没对我同情

在你的心里 我毫无一席容身之地

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命运让我遇见你

却不让我走近

我们之间的距离

像天堂和地狱

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你 我遥不可及

你 让目光交集

用尽力 想靠近你

让我继续沉溺于幻想你

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你 我高攀不起

你 美得太迷离

追逐你的人海里

而我凭什么要 你关心

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你 若掉进了河里

你 那些fans

会奋不顾身地

甘为你赔了命 我相信

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我站在队伍的后半截

（拿不到号码牌 拿不到号码牌）

我用我的永远

换你一个哈欠

move, not.

melody, ready

lyrics, beauty

arrangement idea, tick.

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i already have the entire draft in my head

i know exactly how to put things in places

but i did not make that move

that move that could change things

that move that could make everything else make sense.

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but

my procrastination keeps everything else stagnant

maybe they don't deserve to be at where they are now

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maybe i don't deserve to be at where i am at now.

the thin line.

there's only a thin line between success and failure.

as thin as paper.

as thin as dust.

as thin as microorganism.

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the melody that popped up during your shower could be the next hit song

and mark the start of your endless fame and fortune

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or could be easily forgotten merely because you needed to use the loo.

and didnt manage to record it.

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that thin.

timbre and texture.

rachel yamagata played, on shuffle

matched the gloomy day very well, i thought.

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"Would you please get our from under my skin
'Cause I can't begin this yet
And I don't know what my intentions are"

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very quickly, the player jumped to the next track, on shuffle

did what it does best, randomness.

he sang

"Yeah--ahh, If we'd thought a bit 'bout the end of it
When we started to bust up the town
We'd have been aware that this love affair
Was too hot not to cool down"

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Music brings you up, and tears you down,

Makes you frown, and turns it all around.

but this time round,

its nothing more than a medium of sound.

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i continued walking, still feeling gloomy

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on a pretty little wednesday.

舍不得

词曲 dcdarren

天就要下起雨了

雨的颜色 和心情符合

从前雨过天晴 的那些快乐

快要被雨淋湿了

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你就要掉头走了

我面容无色 还能说些什么

以后 晴天 泛雨 还是刮风着

再也与你无关了 （再也与我无关了 不管了）

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会怀念的 是这些年来与你唱的歌

会想起的 是你手掌心里那股温热

会感动的 是你我终于摆脱楸缠了

就算曾经多么深刻

就算我对这一切多

舍不得

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会怀念的 是这些年来用爱写下的歌

会想起的 是相片里的手仍紧握着

会感动的 是你我终于忍痛搁浅了

就算曾经多么深刻

就算离开难免忐忑

就算我对这一切多

舍不得

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你已不在这里了

我还等在这 偷偷想起你了

we are writing things to be laughed at when we turn old.

dated 2004, April, 13

scribbles, imperfect handwritings, and a notebook titled "inspiration"

so much to reminisce from the proses,

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like the tough times,

like the undelicious lunch

like the faces that i came across

like how good i thought i was in writing love poems!

and how i always left them undelivered.

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the things that we wrote back then can only be laughed about when we are all grown up.

and that is why i am writing this,

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so that i can laugh at something when im reading this at a boring afternoon

2015.

寂寞不好受.

i accumulated enough sorrow from months of loneliness to write this tune, lyrics and took quite some time to find the right mood to record the vocal(and it happened at 3 am). i really feel this song, its not another commercial song but this tune never stopped playing in my head, i knew i had to do this.

寂寞不好受

醒来那秒钟

堆尘的床头

一同眼神放空

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寂寞不好受

每当想起你的时候

人来人往的街头

找不到人问候

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我一个人弹琴

唱寂寞的歌曲

一个人演出

我要的剧情

一个人以为 什么都可以放弃

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一个人开心

一个人生气

一个人在叹息

吸着自由的空气 （选择自由的身体）

却不知往哪去 （却被寂寞囚禁）

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寂寞不好受

午夜两点钟

华丽房里头

窗外是个黑洞

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寂寞不好受

每当想起你的时候

空无一人的街头

找不到人问候

break the glass.

i can hear the heart cracking

on the verge of breaking in to pieces

no wait, it is not gonna break,

i know, it will not shatter.

just cracks.

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after the years of moulding injection and processing,

it has become more than a usual glass

polish it, heat the surface up,

the scratches and cracks would be gone.

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it is just another crack afterall...

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it must be made in polymenthyl methacrylate

the noise of silence.

alone in a crowded room,
busy schedules, people passing by, and life
deafened my already insensitive ear
i shed all the other senses and put my heart to listen
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to the noise of silence.
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like a-million-people crowd
like the wrathful sea
like a stagnant traffic
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quitely screaming to breakthru from silence.

indifferent difference.

how ironic it is

that everyone wants to be unique, different,and distinguished from everyone else

but at the same time

how many times were there

when we tried so hard, so hard to fit into everyone else

by trying to be the same.

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you left your stamps in the store room, once the love of ur life

you are using a designer handbag, that you couldnt afford

you studied business, knowing that what you want is paint on canvass, not business letters

you ordered plain water, when all you crave for is a piece of cheesecake

you put on a smile, on a moody day

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i couldnt remember how much ive shed

just to whittle my trueself away

in order to stay in the sphere of social norms.

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do i have a choice?

the frog.

#example 1
i think i simply hated song producing
come to think about it, each and everytime i done producing my song
the stronger feeling is always "relieve", topped off "satisfaction".

i came across this behavior called the frog syndrom
where we tend to behave the according the the pre-defined roles
the roles that the society, or the people around has imposed on you.

it is how you know you will fail the math test because everyone else knows you cant count
it is why you blushes everytime you talk to girls because you're the infamous shy guy
it is why i feel like i was born to write song because darren is a song writer

sticking to the predefined roles is always easier than making a bold change, we all tend to succumb to the law of consistency. the terrifying truth is you could have been someone else.

my resolution for my 24th year is to break through all the perceptions and roles and frames that you've given me.
if i could prove my hypotesis,
i might be a completely different person, or maybe not.


what is the role the society has given you?

the net.

as we're busy with our own life
chasing the train
checking work-related emails
trying to fall asleep

do they ever crossed your mind,
they,
the few most important people in your life
if you had a list,
those whom will definitely make it into top 100,
in a ocean of his and hers, you and them.

it is indeed a luxury,
to be able to stay connected thru the net.
at least you can pretend that you're catching up time to time,
and assumes that,

they're fine.

happy birthday.

the clock hits 00:00

you're reading the first message that missed the right time and came in 40 seconds earlier

before you can start thinking about what to reply

your phone beeps for the second time

and the next time you know, it rang, and your best friend called.

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its your birthday

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and you feel so important,

you have been a very important person im sure.

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do you reply one by one, personally ?

template makes the thank yous easier

but is there anyway

to make them feel that they're as important as you are, to them?

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i'd rather go for a belated wish,

just to stand out from the crowd.

i am a book.

as i age,
i get to see my self better

despite looking into the mirror much lesser than i used to.
from bird's view, 360' view, to a back view.

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i was a narcissist

up until vanity turned its back on me

and there was a point when

i need to find ways not to loathe the shell god has given me.

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i was told a thousand times the cliche we shouldnt judge a book by its cover

this is why sometimes i am so upset that my soul is not justified by the cover

who in this world is naive enough not to pick a lavish outer layer

if they were given a choice?

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outer look has always been a precious commodity;

still is;

and always will be.

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i believe there's a distance between outer look and the soul

and they're moving towards each other unhurried

it takes time

for both to meet

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in the middle.

欠扁

词曲dcdarren
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我们打打闹闹
说过多少狠话
可是我都知道
是你的撒娇
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那凌乱的睡房
墙角那根长发
其实你都知道
是我变心了
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我总说 你想 太多
我没有错 你却无赖我
什么谎话我都说过
被你说穿还不认错
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欠扁的是我 从来没有爱你那么多
承诺只说却没有做
情话说太多
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欠扁的是我 如果认错不够袮补我的罪过
就让我
离开你是惩罚我
最残酷的结果
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如果能摧毁我
你是否忍心动手
好过给我
冷战的落寞

oh life.

Sorry for my absence, my imaginary readers.

im on the edge of 23 year old,

with a career to to fight for, dreams to chase after, and a young torso to look after.

if you wonder hows life for me,

i would say its like,

its like,

a cup of coffee,

decaf coffee, low sugar.

a lilttle bitterness, unquestionable healthy,

plus the portion of sweetness everyone deserves.

hello adulthood =]

see you there.

have you ever gotten things that you once never even dreamth of ?

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it all started when you held the guitar for the first time

and watches your favorite artist on MTV

the first time you're trying to figure out LEGO

you stunned for seconds, watching everyone elses' dream girl passed you by from a distance

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so, so, so far away.

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then,

things got closer- without you knowing it

you first performed on a small stage with hundreds of impatience middleage

you find yourself holding an architectural magazine, trying to get idea for your final year project

you never felt happier, getting a sms from the girl that you met in the library yesterday

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a little piece of heaven, and you already felt like you're on top of the world.

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-

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sometimes you pondered,

how does it feels like to be THERE?

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in a blink of eye,

you try to put urself together, while trying to remember lyrics for the song that youre about to perform on a famous talkshow

you're lying on your sofa, looking up to the ceiling of the house you designed and built

and

the moment you're holding her hand, and she that said she'd marry you.

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once so far away,

now not far away.

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i hope its not just luck,

i know you'll get there too.

问候.

one of the most depressing breakup song i ever written.

词：循宇 曲： dcdarren

睡梦中 敞开你笑容
落空后 残留点温柔
收拾好旧承诺 你我沉默

遗忘我 在流泪以后
背着痛 在心中奔走
若再次邂逅 奢望的手

就像雨声般的空洞
埋葬不了斑驳
让泪随意剥落 唤醒轮廓 的懦弱

难道我们相遇只剩下问候
任由这熟悉都幻化成泡沫
一点一滴飘散在空气中
作一场美梦
是否 还痛


就不让脉搏 随你漂泊
停止问候


凭记忆问候 梦搁浅后沉没
告别深爱过 像落叶般坠落
落在我手中 停不住流动

我们相遇只是平行的问候
任由这熟悉再轻易地错过
无声无息蒸发在思念中
已是场美梦
只能 再痛

voices in my head.

voices in my head,
put me in my bed,
tears i shed, all i evade
under the blueskies' shades

on that shady corner, im living on my own

right across the border, are dreams that i yearn for

voices in whose head,
empty that it dreads
night is long, but life is too short
light years gone in vain

in that crowded town, youre not making a sound,
right across our shoulders, both breathing in sync

if all i need is a broken heart.

drown me,

save me again.

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for i could breathe the air

feeling more precious than ever

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love me,

break me again,

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for the sweetest sound of a tune

that i want to write with a broken heart

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if all i need is a broken heart

a bad nightl.

got up from the bed on the wrong side,

and my pillow's nowhere in sight,

head's heavy and my feets are light,

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ah, what a bad night.

warm regards.

There's something about this phrase.

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i certainly feel more comfortable

if the person signs off with this closing

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the corporate world doesn't allow much space for expression like this.

thanks for those who made an effort to give some warmth

to the icy cold email in my inbox.

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warm regards,

-

Darren.

the sudden urge to spread the butter perfectly.

i don't know what it was
but there was a strange surge that stroked my impulses
right on all the deadly spot
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suddenly i see broadcast of random people and myself
spreading butter on breads on a rush
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i was already on the way to be late for work.
but
this impulse is irresistible
an ineluctable destiny
inevitably determined
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the sudden urge to spread the butter perfectly

the song of a tight slacks in the morning.

my slacks are a lil tight
i wonder if my waist has upsized
or there's extra inches on my thigh
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my slacks are a lil tight
must be the burgers that i had last night
plus the daily low fat milk and egg whites
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my slacks are very tight
and its not like what u had in mind
yay,
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70kg is in sight !

features.

a painting without its personality
is like a face without its features
a taiwanese pop song
a piece of art without its distinguishable characteristic
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i was amazed with the scratching/sgrafitto technique
Pablo Picasso famous with the cubism style
van Gogh and Michelangelo with a touch of realist
and how abstract art could express so much in unrecognizable form
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im not lost,
personality is like a sculpture that takes time to shape itself
before i found my features,
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i'll keep my brushes stalled.

even the whole world is up against you.

do you believe in giving up something,

to achieve some other thing.

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nobody knows whether it will ever work.

but thats the way it is.

you have to do it upfront.

not knowing whether it will ever work.

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even the whole world is up against you.

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sometimes dont you wish you have someone to say

"i dont know what the fuck are you doing.

but im with you."

even the whole world is up against you

save up to 100%.

dont you love discount,
you get another extra piece of cloth for the price of one.
dont you hate discount,
you just got yourself two piece of clothes that you doenst need at all.
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psychology pricing will work,
anytime, anywhere, on anyone.
buy one free one or a 20% discount is never a cliche,
thanks to pricing strategy,
technically,
it helped alot of indecisive people make up their mind.
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for those who falls for the same old marketing scam,
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SAVE UP TO 100%,
when you dont buy anything at all.

im not falling in love ( but there's always a but)

square tiles.

while i was young, well , im still young
i tend to keep my steps within the square tiles.
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along the walkway,
i carefully estimate every steps.
and try to avoid the cracks.
and walk in some sort of pattern that only known to myself
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sometimes i would group them in colors,
walking down the corridor
stepping only on red instead of teal tiles
it could be very challenging sometimes,
especially when there were passerby.
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now you know
a simple activity like walking
could be so absurd yet sophisticated

played 118times.

vanity has reached its peak in me

but its nothing close to complacency

i merely savor listening to everybit of my own voice thru the earphones

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until the point that sometimes i wonder what is my 8gb ipod's for

since i only repeat my own track over and over again

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voice that is so familiar yet so different from the one i hear inside my head

tracks that you never heard on the radio

and tunes that bounces off the bathroom walls as echos

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secretly playing, on repeat

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i was wondering whether there was any medical term

for the sickness of listening and repeating my own music over and over again

chicken breast.

if you dont understand why seller charge more for a drum stick,

if you always wonder why people fight for the wings

if you're disgusted with the fats everyone else loves from the thigh

If you like chicken breast, too

you've found a friend.

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its high on protein

its the leanest part of the whole chicken

it has less than half the fat of a trimmed bone steak

and you face 67% lesser competition (compared to other parts)on the dinner table

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for this piece of goodness

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choose good food,

choose chicken breast today.

lucky colour of the day.

i never tend to bother the advice on my zodiac sign

especially the "lucky colour today"

somehow i am superstitious

and do pick my colours on special occasion

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lucky colour is the shirt i used to wear on that lucky day sometime ago

lucky colour is the colour of the clouds that you peaked thru the fringe of a bad hair day

lucky colour is magnum 4D's yellow

lucky colour is the colour i knew you like

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lucky colour is the only ironed shirt left in my closet

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what is your lucky colour, today?

mana mungkin.

live band - dcdarren
music & lyrics - dcdarren

setiap malam ku
mengenangi wajah yang ku kasih
menghiasi taman hati

langit malam seandai ulangan detik indah kita
tiada sesiapa mengerti
biarku merana
biarkan ku derita

kian hari
kian sepi
ku berbeban perih
hati hancur terserpih
biarku bersendiri
ku masih di sini

mana mungkin
kau cinta ku ini
pelukan yang takkan ku miliki

mana mungkin
kau berikan kasih
yang sudah terjadi
biar terjadi

sungguh cobaku menanti
sungguh pasrah don melody
singgahlah kau di sisi
walaupun hanyalah
berbelas kasih

S.M.A.R.T

1. Reach my budgeted financial goal.

2. Be productive along with KPI(key performance index), more commercial stuff.

3. Extra Time and communication with my family and friends.

4. Travel.

5. 155 pound/ 70kg. and grow a beard lol thats uncontrollable.

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i will always remember S.M.A.R.T goal method. Specific, Measurable, Achievable, Realistic, Time-bound.

I feel good to be in control of my own life. When you know exactly when and exactly how to reach a destination, all you need

is to kick start.

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today.

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like, now.

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-yeah,

u just wasted 2 second.

Frames.

frames, i hate the idea.

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i remember the old times when we were in the art class,

when the art teacher want us to paint beaches

it always has to be a coconut tree, a golden sandy beach, blue sky with cotton white clouds, two mountain with a sun peaked in between, matchstick birds, and a beach ball.

that piece of heaven is framed in a 12 x 8 A0 Paper.

thats it.

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who prototyped us all ?

-

the wall could be my canvas

ketchup could be my paint

imagination could be my paintbrush

you could be my blue skies

-

who set the rule that paintings have to be square in shape?

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do you live in a frame that life given you?

sorry, im in.

hi,2010.

hi, 2010.

what's your name ?

oh, SOlO.

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