du da da.

music/lyrics: darren chuah

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du da da~ its painful just to think of you
like the guitar~ with broken strings and out of tune
du da da~ i dont wanna knoe the scenary outside my room
du da da~ i live in my own blackhole
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along the street there are couples holding hands
dont let me witness
our promises that havent happen on us
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what is love?
the answer is on the back of the earth
before the sunlight falls on us
pls remember
when im still holding ur hand this moment
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before the world's awake
i silently watches u leave
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what is love?
now im on the back of the earth
after the sun rises
pls temporary forget
that we held each other last night
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before anyone's awake
i silently sent you away from me.
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du dad a...
i dont understand the asnwer give...n

sing in the lecture hall.

Inspiration always come at the wrong time

Ive been in inspiration drought for like.. two weeks..

but recently

it always came without notice

its either in the lecture hall

in the bathroom

or while im driving

unamed combination of tunes rushed into my mind

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forcing me to whisper to my fone recorder,

ended up recorded the lecturer's lecture

forcing me to rush out of the bathroom

holding the guitar almost naked

forcing me to giveup half of my attention in driving

just to end up forgetting the melody tat played so hard in my head

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why do my mind get stimulated at the wrong time?

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i really need a recorder

if only i could have one in my head............................

i fell awake in a cozy afternoon.

i fell asleep in a cozy afternoon

and i woke up in a cozy afternoon

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time passes too fast in my dream

there's no sunrise or sunset,

but it felt like days and weeks has passed me by

there,

i saw myself

i saw you

and i saw myself with you.

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time passed too fast in my dream

thats y i met u there, in my dream

there's no clock, no day ,and no night

no colour, only a world in monochrome

but there's you.

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it seemed like days and weeks has passed me by

but it was only in my dream.

...............

i fell asleep in a cozy afternoon,

and i woke up in a cozy afternoon.

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can the time move a lil faster?

not as fast as the time in my dream

just a lil faster......... .

caffeinated.

a fren asked me why my blog has nothing to do with my life
i answered "im blogging bout my life lah .?."

simple, but true,
everything is bout me,my life,
and things that are seen thru my eyes,
tho the way i express them is a lil diffrent
but,
ha, i just did it my way.


wa, the rain is falling hard out there,
the vessels and cells of my brain is crying for caffeine
admit that im physically,

more to mentally dependant of the dark coloured, bittersweet, addictive liquid
especially when the weather is chilling, like this one


ah, boiled some water,poured it into a cup filled with "costa"
add some sugar, stirred
jazzy music mellowly playing thru my wooden speaker,

i took a sip beside my apartment's window.
it was raining hard out there.

and i tasted it with my heart,
not merely tongue,



it tasted like Life. : )




and thats part of my life.

It is hard to be in love

It is even harder to not be in it.

the bad month is over.

there was a tarot card game on tele
five cards with the same back named ABCDE
pick one base on your intuition,
and it'll predict hows your november is gonna be

and so,i picked D, D for darren.

the figure is the angel of death

.. .

and i just had a bad november.
she picked D too,
she probably just experienced the worst november in her life..

hm,
but it wasnt tat bad afterall,
yes, i failed my exam for the first time
but at least im still alive and kicking now.

the bad month is over,
if i got the chance to pick a tarot card again
what would it be ?

ah, the bad month is over
here comes december....

the end of the year.

toilet lights.

the lights 's flickering
sometimes it feels better to just close my eyes
and stay in the complete darkness of my own world

or ,

just turn the f-- lights off,

pls.

because im a gemini.

I got a great desire to perform on stage
but another part of me doesnt like to be under the limelight

will a performance without audience satisfies my needs?
no dude, this will never happen in ur world.

ah, sometimes i hate myself as a gemini.
but another part of me enjoyed being a gemini.

because im a gemini.

why it always rain at nite.

suddenly it started to rain
lovers outside my window leaned on each other
easily evaded the raindrops
holding the warm and wet palm they love
in the iced cold night


the lovers' in rain
inside their heart,
it was warm like they were bathed in sunlight


in the sudden downpour on this beautiful night
the couple didnt get wet.
because they got each other.

blue.

miss Sadness only work at nite

everything will be ok

when the sunlight falls on ur bed next morning

she'll be sleeping

she worked extremly hard ytd

just after i wrote this song

http://www.savefile.com/files/257228



just after i hear ur voice, again.


so, let her sleep

let her rest

so that we can rest too.. .. ..

if only the time moved so slowly can be a lil faster.

can the colour of the night be any darker?
so that others wouldnt see my emptiness written in my eyes
can the town i lived in silent for one more moment?
so that u would hear my heart is crying out softly for your help.

-why do everytime when the darkness fall
i'll lose the feeling of that ure still there for me
why do everytime after i off the lights
the night will swallow me into its blackhole

if only the time which moved so slowly
can be a lil faster in reaching the next sunset
maybe i might see my dear you a lil soooner

but
its too dark that i couldnt find my way back to me
its too silent and i couldnt hear ur footsteps coming closer to me

now i dont know when will the next morning come again
i refuse to open my eyes
i dont wanna ask
i wont speak another word
and ive lost the ability to hear


just when i needed you the most
you wasnt there

road.

anyone still havnt know that
my sense of direction has been lacking?

i got lost in places
in the little city i grown up in
i couldnt find my way to the town
in the place im living in
i turned to the left side
when the right side was on my right side
there's a compass in everybody's head
but mine always loses its function when i needed it the most

is there any medication in this world
to help me with my problem?

but im heading to you now
would you lead me the way to you
so that i can finally safely land on ur heart?

i might lose my self in you.
before the end of the journey.

the oldman selling ice-cream on the street.

the old man selling ice cream on the street
does he enjoy being in colourful outfit?

the kid ran over to the oldman
bought an rainbow coloured ice-cream
and then walked away with joy

the old man selling ice cream on the street
has he ever once fell in love with ice cream too?

the oldman selling ice cream on the street
he's selling shortlived happiness on a cheap.
who's buying? who's buying?

the old man selling ice cream on the street
has he ever once fell in love with ice cream too?

hmmm.. i wondered i wondered

and i bought an ice-cream.

notre amo'ur est beau.

if she likes to walk in the rain
do grab a handful of warmth from ur pocket
and give it to her

if she forgets the beauty of the blue cloudy sky
do hold her hand and lie on the grass of green
under the sunlight


love is like an angel behind the mask
she's watching over us.

i use the fax machine.

i used to write down those unhappy things on a piece of paper
and then fax it to myself
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words on the paper need some time to fade away
therefore,
ur pain and sorrow will also fade away
as time goes by
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until its very very blur
until we can hardly recognize wats written there

and then,
the paper become blank again

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but it will never be like the same again
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yellowish.., stained.., and wrinkled
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it will never be like the same again
there must be some marks on it
more or less
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there must be some.

its easy to taste the sweetness,
but everthing means nothing to me

i need a reason to love.

i always believe that if i study hard enough.

i always believe that

if i study hard enough

there's no doubt that i'll be a flat 4 student

not going to the exam hall empty headed

finish up my ink in the exam,(and then raise my hand and ask for extra pen and paper)

writes like shakespear in my literature

and answers like einstein in my maths paper

maybe,

that 's the reason why i wouldnt wanna study

cz if i studied and didnt manage to score

that's when i couldnt accuse my laziness

to be responsible for my (poor)result anymore

then id have nothing else to blame.

over the distance.

pls. just hang up
dont wanna talk anymore

wont wanna let u hear words u wanted to hear
i dont want you to cry on the phone

dont wanna act like a child
reluctant to say goodbye
pls .just hang up

dont say u'll miss me
dont wanna depend too much on the tenderness u give over the telephone line
every seconds that went by thru the telephone line
cuts deeper into my wound

can u hear my heart's bleeding ?

cause i heard yours.


so, pls hang up, just hang up.

raindrops.

its raining again
i hear voices of water
crashes on the roof of a house with 1 car and 4 family members and 1 dog in it
falls on leafs of a tree near the children playground
and then helplessly drips on the ground of the street where we first met
and then flow with the rest of them into the drain beneath


do the rain falls in a line ?
or drop by drop?
like infinite of transparent pearls falling from above
and crashes into pieces again when they meet the ground

when we kiss,
the time will stop for us for that very moment
and everything around us will freeze in motion
and then go turn back to where they began
over and over again.

that's when i can see,
the rain falls drop by drop
like infinite of transparent pearls
sent to us on heaven's name

there's a type of pen with invisible ink that only can be seen under the uV lights.

i wrote ur name on my hand.
with invisible ink
that only can be seen under uv lights.
that only can be seen by me myself

that no one elses can see

my beautiful little secret.

can u see ur name on my hand?
its always been there with me

but todae,
i wrote ur name on my hand

with a type of pen with invisible ink that only can be seen under uV lights.

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for the love ahead of time.

next time when we meet again

pls stop the time from turning back

will u see the feelings

that i tried so hard to hide?

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dont give me another glance

dont try to tell me you miss me too, with those beautiful eyes

im scared that i couldnt recognize

and i'll fall into the sorrow again, for the umpteen times

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if i love

then turn around and walk away

survive with scattered memories of u beneath the heart of mine

if i love

pls, just turn around and walk away

for the sake of the love ahead of our time

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with myself, ive learnt to be patient

not looking for another you, anywhere else

pls take good care of, the dreams which only time will tell
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i whispered to you millions of time inside my head

i Love, i Love,...i Lo.v..e ..
and i smiled and walked away

just walked away

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-we wait, we pray, we dream.

2.

can i give my body and soul to two different ppl ?

if the soul have to touch the other souls over and over again to understand its perfect mate

y cant the body continue to search for its other half ?

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do u understand?

do you understand that ive understood

when ure not by my side,

i can imagine that ure just right here beside me

the feeling is so real, i can even touch and feel you

ure so close to me, cz ur soul is with me
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but sometimes when ure with me,

our souls can be so tensed up, and even frozen in ice,

or lingering somewhere else,with someone else

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arent body and soul are meant to be, are supposed to be together ?

how could you broke it into two?

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i'll be waiting for the day when they find each other again.

i still havent found what im looking for.

things i planned to buy
1. Guess watch
2. mp3 player with built-in voice recorder
3. a digital camera

things ive lost recently
1. rm900
2. brown RL t-shirt
3. faith in strangers

things ive get accidentally
1. wooden acoustic guitar
2. lost wallet
3. phone call from a long lost friend
4. paulo coelho - eleven minutes
5. a warning - look deceived everyone else

things im still looking for
1. a light blue tee written number 10
2. ticket to watch a movie
3. idea of baby names (male)
4. time to finish some books
5. reason to love unconditionally

the english teacher and the boy in the maths class.

the boy gave his everything in the maths test
but the english teacher,
who knoes nothingNOTHING bout the boy, who knoes nothing bout algebra
asked the maths teacher to fail the boy.
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she wasnt there when the boy confesses his story,his will and his dream

she'll never see how much effort the boy has put into maths
she forgotten that no one in this world understand the boy better than the maths teacher.

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just because she FELT that the boy' wasnt concentrating in class..
the boy SHOULDN'T continue.
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she dont know its not easy to be the boy

she dont know the boy prayed everynite.

and the numbers wouldnt go away from his mind

even after he turned off the lights before he goes to bed.

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hope she'll understand that little things might change the fate of the boy.
who knoes the boy might be the next Einstein.

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he will. :)

look deceives. deceived everyone else..

the staircase of my apartment.

the elevator was out of service
so i used the stairs
the stairs where we used to step on once upon a time
every steps i take
still reminds me of you
the reason why u take the stairs even the elavator is functioning
the staircase lights tat flickers in that night

and the staircase which seemed too narrow for us to walk together

still reminds me,

of us.
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im back to the staircase again
i want to count every steps i took
i swear i knew what im doing

but the journey seems too long for me to remember all the little reasons that brought me here.
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the staircase in my apartment

it's only 4th floor
but why
it felt like it'll never end
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sometimes it's like a never ending staircase
i dont know when i'll reach the place i wanted to go
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-- - - - -
one step, two steps, three steps..
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and still going..

Lost & found.

The wallet left behind,
it took me too long to find u missing
away from me , where else could u be ?
lying on the street, not knowing wat to do
still waiting for me to come back to you
or in someone else's pocket?
i begin to panic,
why,
only when ure gone.
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wallet left behind,
i found it in the other corner of my world
and i took it home again
"phew.." i realived.. "now ure back to me again"
i promise that i'll never let u go again, no.
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but i was being naive
i should have realise things will never be the same again
no matter how i look at you,
the pocket seems wrinkled no matter from which angle
the colour seems faded away
and
ur heart is missing...
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i wanna patch things back
want you to come with me like what we did before
wanna replace the bank notes with new one
and act like nothing's happened
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but why i couldnt understand,
that things will never be the same again?
at least, there will always be a big hole in my bank account.
why i couldnt see
you will never be the same again.
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lost and found,
who's the bastard who stole ur heart?
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the wallet once left behind carelessly,
now u're still with me,

i should be happy.
but things will never be the same again.
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never

over and over again.

if there's one day

i have to gohav to gohave to go

wouldnt have to live in your uncertainties

i'll still be singing

missing you, missing you, missing you.

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i could just let it gole t it go l etit go

but everytime when u call when u cal l whenu cal

i just cant hold the urge to say missing youmisisng uoy missing you

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i'll set u free,altho i cant understand.

i'll give u the keys

to come back to me, or walk out the door, or come back again

knowing tat i'll reserve my everythingevthing everyhting

for youfor u4 you.

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if there's one day when im goneim gone ima gon e

u'll be singing

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missingyou missing youu,missing you.

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i repeat over and over again

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missing you, missing you, missing you.............................................

Frozen.

The sun never turns up today
the bird lost its way back
the clock on my table is ticking
but why the sky outside my window isnt changing
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-passion makes everything stop
my time is frozen since i last heard from you
u know a single trace or news from you
would melt everything back in places
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i'll be waiting,
until the moonlight dries up the melting frozen heart.

a movie date.

a date for movie

it's the only thing of the day i can look foward to

it doesnt matter.

whter its a million dollar production

or its just an odd film

under the dimmed lights

infront of the giant screen

why

ure the one ive been watching throughout the hours

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everylittle things u do distract me from the movie

even its giggles, or cough or a smile on ur face

can be nicer to watch than any of the scene playing in the room

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*I only want to concentrate

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in you.

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ive seen alot movie stars on the screen

but why

for the very moment,

none of them is better looking

than the one sitting right beside me now

--:)

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when a friend asked me about the story line,

i dont think i can even tell them what ive watched

coz the reason im on a movie date

is not the movie :p

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its you.

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*they wouldnt understand why.

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a date for movie

seems like its the only tommorow i can look foward to

next time when we're on a date for movie

would you let me noe

whether im the only one distracted?

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would you?

cz i cant see the lake on the mountain.

i still dont understand where the water from the waterfall comes from
people says there's a big pool on the top of the mountain
and the water were just streaming downhill
like a very steep river
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is there really a lake on the mountain?
if yes
then why we never get to see it?
if there's a lake on the mountain
why does the waterfall never runs out of water
even there's no rain?
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i want to sit at the river stone
to prove that im right
the waterfall will runs out of water and stop one day
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thousands feet of sparkling water
i believe the water were pouring down from heaven
cz i cant see the lake on the mountain
cz i dont see the waterfall runs out of water
so water must be pouring down from heaven
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peoples have been using waterfall to describe their love
cz the waterfall will never runs dry
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cz the water fell from heaven

ah, love.

hey,love

I look at u, from afar

ure still as beautiful as the day we met

but u knoe

theres something between us that words cant tell

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hey, love

I look at u,right infront of me

i see time passed me tenderly

sometimes i wonder if there's really tat much of time left for me

so many people came to our world and then left

shall we just follow the nature?

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The world is too hectic and busy

no one will really care for wat uve lost or how uve been hurt

but why,

why youre the one and only

that special someone who differs from any other ppl in the world

seems like i couldnt hide away

from the love that are fated for me

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hey, love

dare not dream for someday

when we dont have to struggle in the river of love

I need noone elses to understand what ive got for u

I just have to keep this beautiful liltle dream beneath my heart

and the warmth is already enough for me

i dare not ask for more

for now,

i dare not ask for more.

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hey,love

u always talk bout our dream

pls believe me,

sometimes i dare not close my eyes and dream

i dare not dream for a single thing that we've dreamt of

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what is counted as love?

ah,love,pls dont come any nearer to me

i wouldnt want the wounds on my back to be touched

cz your tenderness has become the cause of my misery

has become the knives that slices thru my pain

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hey love,

if there's one day

i carelessly left you behind

would u pls forgive me..?

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cz its only because my heart has bleed to death.

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would you?

an accident.

anyone out there still believes in co-incidence?

which is right after u said something

there's somebody in the other corner uttering the exact words uve just said

that somebody was in a different chat topic

but uttered the same language same words same line

in the same time, same place.

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it was so crowded, so loud

that u wouldnt hear ur own voice even if ure distracted for a second

but still,

that somebody's voice was so clear.

every word was so clear.

so loud...

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hm, try to recall how we met each other?

was it merely because of co-incidence?

or there's somethign else?

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shhh....

i believe in fate.

i always do. . .

11am, lying on the bed ,wide awake.

11am, im still lying on the bed

for the past ten minutes

I tried very very hard

to recall what ive dreamed of last nite

want to remember

because i remember, its all about you

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ahh.. but seems like dreams are meant to be forgotten

it was so clear, like u can touch and feel them

but in the moment u open ur eyes

the memory just dissapear..snap

in a fraction of second

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how good if there's a device

to record down my dream while im asleep

and then i could replay them over and over again

those sweet moments we yet to go thru

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yah.. dream on

but before its invented

let me really crack my head again

and think of wats in the dream..

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11am, im still lying on the bed.

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dreaming, with my eyes wide open

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p/s: i asked, how to dream of someone evnight?

u said, must think and misses them, all day long. badly.

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wanted to tell u

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i did.

all day long,

badly.

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p/s : dont forget our dreams.

paris' 15 °C.

30 °C outside my window,

winamp playing "je' taime madame" inside my room

view of Opera de Paris Bastille in my desktop

and the weather report

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in the hot and humid afternoon

i try to picture my self in the Louvre Museum

breathing the air of Jardin du Luxembourg

making a wish infront of Fontaine de Medicis

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15 °c in Paris,

how'd it feel standing on the eiffel tower?

how'd the coffee by the street taste like?

how'd it feel to be there with u?

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pls time, pls

quickly pass me by...

would you slip away without letting me know?

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i want to be there

as soon

as possible ..

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i cant wait. ..

monster.

he gives you sweets
he gives you poison
he knew he's the only cure to it
he knows your heart is aching
but he wouldnt let you die
his heart is aching for you
but he wouldn't relieve the pain in you

you should know
he's everywhere, no matter you want it or not
he'll appear anywhere, no matter you need him or not
it's not important anymore
whether u think there's love or not
you cannot stand it anymore
but it feels like you can never runaway.


he's a monster
he's a monster

he's a monster in us.

sweetest torture.

I guess i could just look away

dont wanna look at ur face

and pretend that i dont care, dont miss u anymore

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i guess i could just smile at somebody new

somebody sweet and kind

who would try to get you off my mind

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I guess I could leave this agony behind

or take a sleeping pill at night

so that i dont have to go through what i go through

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If i could listen to the dating tip

and pretend u dont exist

and dont have to dream what i dream of

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i guess i could take cigratte and beer

and act like u've gone away

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but i cant,

i dont want to

i dont want to get over you

dont want to get over love.

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p/s : ur love is my sweetest torture.

standard time.

before 3 o'clock, afternoon
its time for breakfast
and ur greetings is my breakfast

without mom's cooking.
after 12 o'clock, midnite
its time for sleepless nite
or i'd say,
im not sure whther im awake or asleep.
-ure my supper for sleepless night.


i cannt see anething
its only you
everytime i close my eyes
night turns into day
the closer i get to u,
the clearer i see the distance between us
sometimes i feel safe
another minute i feel insecure
before we have enough space to communicate
u may not understand this language of mine.
i may not understand ur little hints.



before we're together.
i'll give u some time
to get use to my time.
before we hold each other's hand
do give me some time
to get use to ur time. : )

have the postman delivered my love?

the soul is who you are
when u strip away
the body
the mind
and heart

we're not perfect,
we come with baggage
u may not look the way i thought u'd look
u may have flaws that i dont like it very much
but when our souls are together
u're somehow perfect for me.

waiting for you,
its so special
its a decision made in our hearts
that sometimes feels as it were made in heaven

waiting for you,
if the love passes the test of time,
then it's real.



i knoe it's real.


p/s: have the postman delivered my love ?

fireworks display in mitc.

I wrote a song for you
the night was so beautiful
the moonlight was just too sparkling,
the fireworks appeared at the perfect moment
and i just can't stop this melody
playing inside my head.

Missing you,
it's like a drug formed inside my body
cruises thru every single vessels in my body
penetrates thru the thick thick heart of mine
Finally,
the chemistry turned into melody
every changes of rhythm signifies your uncertainties
every whisper of lyrics express my feeling towards you
every pitches of note cries my distance from you

i just have to write a song for you
the night's too beautiful
the star's too sparkling
the firework makes everything perfect
and i just cant figure out how to stop this melody
from playing inside my head

so,
i wrote it down
i wrote a song for you,

for you.

sleepless night.

when you are extremely exhausted and tired

after the long day is over

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the feeling come to you

when u dont need it the most

when u desperately need some sleep

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it stay on the bedside, all night long.

and refuse to go away.

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p/s:

havent i told you, how much i

only in my dreams, i

u have killed me.

i wish i wouldnt have to take all this responsibility
can't you just be stronger for all your needs?
cause you're like a baby sitting on the ground
and crying for someone to come to ease your bleed

But I say you'll see,
i'd make you see
every detail of this damning life
I still can see,I still can feel
but all the words just make me wanna cry


and I cannot buy you a future
i cannot give you the answer
i cannot be ur savior

i cant save myself either...

je t'aime

if only i can read your mind,
i wouldnt have to wonder if ure thinking of me, or not.
if only i can read your mind,
u wouldnt have to cry alone in the night. heart broken.
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no..
even if i can read your mind
but i cant win back ur soul. uve given it to someone else.
even if i can read ur mind
can i ever accept the fact that u r letting me go ?
even if i can read ur mind
will i ever know where your heart wants to go?
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i'd rather let u read mine
so that u'll see what's inside.
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over the distance.

have u ever?
there's once in ur life,
just once, when u can see lights shining from heaven
when the distance between u and her is so far away

*but across the room
u can feel that the movement of her necklace locket
is perfectly same as the rhythm of ur breathing

u knoe she's watching u,
with the eyes of her heart
u knoe if u both were to write a love story of ur own
they wont be any forewords,
u knoe she wants u
u knoe if there wasnt so many things to care for
u both are willing to give up just anything
and everything
to be together

but at last u still have to bite ur lips,
and wait for the right time to come.

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p/s : i.........

wrong ending.

If Superman died because of bird flu
in the end of the story
how could i accept the fact

once my hero when i was young
suddenly lost his superpowers.

i refuse to accept the way the story end.



If Rose didnt met Jack on Titanic
and never seen each other for the rest of their life
and passed by each other

their death must be colder than the one in iced-water
without the love

i refuse to forget how they supposed to end



If Sizuka is not marrying with Nobita
the thing i believed in for so long
crashes into pieces in a fraction of second

after all the laugther, tears and waiting
ended up with loneliness.

i refuse to accept the way the story end.



p/s : i . . .

journey to paris

flight to paris

2lvridthv2lv

they cant buy they cant find what we want the most
even in the best conveniece store

because it's only available in the hand of the one we love

room 3x5.

Goodnight, my beautiful stranger

and we shall meet in my dream tonight

if that's the only way to be close to you

if that's the only way for us to be together.

starting line.

Things are gettig busier these days
and i dont think it will get any easier someday
for the past two years life has been very easy
like and vacation on a remote island

Tommorow im gonna wake earlier
to have a proper breakfast
to rearrange my closet
and clean my room
ad buy fishes to fill in the abandoned aquarium

and start my life again,
for the Xxth times.



Goodnite Malacca
The peaceful little town where i live my life in
would u take me back to the place i belong to?

because that's the starting line where i can begin my journey to the world.


take me back, take me back.

not too much of urself.

I liked the moment when im alone,
but no , not too much
I have to learn to live with others
the world is too small for this type of people.

i liked to wander in the art museum
let the colours nuture my soul
but no, no too much
im in business field, not art.

I need music to give me warmth
to be my blanket when im cold
to be my direction when im lost
but no, not too much
i have to be independant.

Id like to be a traveller
not a business man, not an aviator, not a star
and go to places where no one had been to
but no, not too much,
the world is far too cruel to live my dream.

i liked myself
but no, not too much
i believe no one in this world
could be himself, could live herself
coz it's never enough to be urself.



never enough.

p/s: before the day i prove myself wrong, i have to continue to pretend myself to be somebody else.

remember valentine's day.

valentine's day is coming
cupid wanders around
may lovers stay in the river of love
and loners fall in it
lover's christmas on the 14th of feb
let love falls like november's snow
let love be the sweater of lovers

valentine's day is coming
where are the roses belonged to me
love letters sent by heaven's name
leave it on my doorside
before the sweet day is over

remember valentine's day
a day to mourn for love which havent find its way
understand that
there's too many lovers' still apart from each other
a day to be loved,
to give
and to love the one beside you


p/s:sometimes i secretly hope that every lovers will receive a heart-shaped card from heaven

as a prove that he/she had been in love this valentine.

i got 55 years of time in hand.

I heard alot people complaining saying that they're running out of time or they wish they have more time or theres not enough time.

*

I think they're like a girl who is holding a bag of candies and having one in her hand

but still , she ask her dad for more candies.

*

it's the same thing isnt?

god gives you a lifetime to spend (human has an average age of 74 for male, and 79 for female.)

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i got 55 years left breathing if i die by the age of 74.

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55 years can be very long yet very short

very long because the pace of the clock ticking and there's too many things i can do before i die

very short because

we're estimated 3000 years away from the end of the world and i dont know whether the next tallest building will be completed in 55 years time.

*

sometimes i wish i could live long enough to see a reallife robot maid, at least.

*

and last afternoon i went thru a article about human being, and its written there that children borned this year may be able to live beyond the age of 130. read it here.

*

to prove that statement is true by myself, i have to live up to 150 years old to make it.

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ok, let this be my new year wish. long live darren chuah.

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p/s: u havent even finish using the first quater of ur time, so stop asking for more, god wont make it come true.

kiss goodbye.

mp3: Kiss Goodbye.

Baby stop crying for me

i remembered those moment when my hands tightly held yours

and we were reluctant to let each other go

sometimes i wanna tell u those words so much

but everytime i chose to remain silence

-just give me one more minute

and a last glance of your beauty

*

happpiness mixed with sadness

pierced thru my heart in the same time

tears cant seem to weight how much love we had

i cant take back the love given to you

and sorry

im not able to return what ive owe you

please

dont take my heart away from me.

*

everytime when im apart from you

im so deeply defeated by you

everytime after i let your tenderness passed me by

where to release the pain and sorrow i have inside?

*

everytime when im apart from you

and everytime i kiss you goodbye

that's when i finally understand the taste of love,

more than anyone elses do.

*

that's when i realise

i couldnt lose you

and that's the moment when i realise,

ive lost you

completely.

28 days leave.

first of all , thank you for viewing my page. i appreciate it so much and i guess thats the power that support me and my inspiration.

since the day i started this blog, i enjoyed every moment i spent in this blog..
whether its thinking of the correct grammar to use
the feeling when i got funny dialogue in the chat box
or when i reading the back feedback ..

i think
maybe this is another way to find happiness,
the simple way,
to share . and to be heard,
how simple. =)

but due to some personal reason, i will stop writing,no..stop posting my writings here for 28days.

and again,
so long till i blog again.

p/s : i love my friedns